DECEMBER STORY

For My Loving December

For my buddies, I know you like news & I have one :)

for those who wishing my journey a happy one, this note is all about.

I planed to wrote this one since the very first day we met, when YOU asked me "If I could spend my life with you"...

wow wow wow... I have been very confuse myself when hearing that, half of me would like to believe there are someone falling in love with me, that I help make his life move & more excited now :) that's actually really good. Another half, the piece full of reality awareness, that one alerts me to stay tune, to not so excited of the serious relationship offer I have ever received :-) I just try to stay on earth and the reality :) Yes, I have more than once love someone & enjoy these relationships. I'm now sometime dating, but not serious relationship - because the singles, who can marriage me, they don't love me enough, I guess :) the one who interested in real me, who wanna spend their rest with me, they just could not any more as they in their own marriage :) I hope those facts can keep YOU stay on earth & reconsider whether YOU still wanna spend your life with me.

We went thru many conflict conversations & considering. I was in doubt of trust. I was struggling.

The love games of making long-distance-relationship that I've ever enjoyed, I've given up & got tired long long time ago. I had enough "foreigner fish" & too tired of dealing with miscommunication because of language barriers... I have enough craziness to just enjoy single life without any serious responsibilities...

YOU found me when I still wandering on my own journey

YOU convinced me that we could bring happiness to each other.

YOU pulled my faith back to me when it almost left.

"Don't let me go as I have no way to go back"

& I leave my life in your hands from now on!

 (since March 2008)