When The Belief Is On Fire...

 Writing during these challenge days

WHEN MY BELIEF IS ON FIRE...

these days, seem I'm surrounded by F0 all the time, anyone could be a source to let me contaminated with Wuhan Corona Virus... Scare? Yes, I do!

But, even I'm F0 one day, guaranteed in a narrow cell 14 days... at least, I understand no-one intend to do that on me, he/she - someone, they are also struggling, depressed... by the time they aware of this. Thinking that way helps ease my mind for awhile.

there were seconds (lot of sudden moments...) that I almost lost - just wanna hide - just wanna stay in my nest... just know only wishing someone - whoever, someone could help me to survive, no need to work for living... I used to be like that.

there were seconds (lot of sudden moments...) that I really scare to meet anyone, even that is the must - I can't get rid of the scary mind & scary time...

when trust by natural instinct to others is almost lost... my belief is on fire. It was not a happy experience, totally it isn't.

Now, still in doubt of everyone around, but, I'm more open - I admit the reality that surrounding me, people are just same as me, scare - insecurity - hope then hopeless then emptiness...then continuing hope - scare - insecurity...

I just wrote this down -it was not a happy experience, totally it isn't. Even that, I thankful for having chance to challenge my belief on others, challenge my trust to life. I know life is beautiful - life is short - I now knowing life has lot of painful but still, it's still great that we can stay alive during these months.

Stay connect - even we cannot give hug!

Stay happy - even we cannot get together for warmly cheering!

Stay healthy - even when we hardly to breath!

Stay positive - even the word "positive" means another sickness symptom nowadays - I still wanna lift up my spirit with positive mind!

(Nov 18, 2021 - just writing that down)